and all that i can see, is just another lemon tree.

Mar 20, '08 9:34 AM
for everyone

wan ko kng anong topak ang inabot ko bakit ko to ginawa. cguro, uhm, ewan tlaga! hmm. ang the best excuse lng na naiicp ko for this ay dhil gsto kong magshare. bsahin kung gstong mlaman. haii.

i was told na HE wrote a blog for the first time. HE told me rin na bhira nia un gawin. & ayaw nia tlga ng mga gnung bagay2. but nweis sabi nia sana daw mabasa ko. & i was excited to read it. bsta. i felt that i had to. & when i finally had the chance to do so, wla akong mcomment sknya. i was careful enough dapat i suppose. so i intended to post my comments sa blog niang un here in my own account pra i can control the limits.

a part, stolen from HIS blog:

lalu na sa Philippine High School for the Arts...haayyy....makiling...ang dami kong na tutunan dito sa mga guro sa mga katrabaho,at mga taong naka paligid...duon rin umaadar ang mundo ko kahit wala ako dun.
kahapon ang huling araw ko na wala ako sa bahay namin...bawat sandali ay sinsariwa ko sa bundok na iyon at lalu na ang taong tutugtugan ko...sa kanya ko rin kinukuha ang lakas ko at ang damdamin ng bawat tunog na inilalabas ng instrumento ko....sa kanya.... sa kanya lang....at marahil ito narin ang huling pagkakataong matugtugan ko sya...habang lumilipas ang bawat segundo ng aming pag tatanghal...parang ayaw ko nang bumaba sa entablado.nang matapos kami,pinanood ko sya at masaya kong tinitigan ang bawat indak nya at ang ngiti nya...na tatandaan ko iyon at ngayon ay sinasariwa ko ito...nang matapos ang programa,di na ako nag pakita...masaya na akong makita sya sa huling sandaling iyon ng kanyang pagtatanghal,hanggang sa pag tulog sya parin ang nsa isip ko.ilang taon na ang nakakalipas at kahapon na nga ang huli...at ngayon....kailangan ko nang umuwi...

ehem. ehem.

i know it was NOT directly stated who but i think i know the person talked about in this entry. mkapal na kng mkapal. uhm it was, after all, our recital. i was, after all, the only gurl fd graduate. unless it would be jose, al or arvin then my prediction would be wrong.

ndi ako mkareact ng tama. i didn't know how i really actually felt after i've read it. prang nlungkot na ewan. was it her fault kng bkit gnun ung feelings ni guy? was she numb enough to the point na ndi man lng nia nramdaman na andian pla si guy all these years? how could she be that stupid not to notice na may gnun pla? and she was so suplada kng tutuusin. nkkaguilty un if i was HER. if lang nman!

ciempre, i was sooo glad na gnun ung treatment ni guy sknya. she was super swerte! ambait bait ni guy! & he respects the gurl sobra kc lam nia ung conflicts between them. uhm, lam nia ung fact na they are very far far away in terms of distance and age. lam nia din ung about sa guy ni gurl. [gets?] uhm, may boyfriend si gurl. yaa. so, ayun nga. he respects those things kya he preferred staying silent nlng. if you look at the situation the way i do, maaastigan ka tlga. i mean, he was willing to sacrifice his feelings pra ndi maabala si gurl. inuuna nia tlaga si gurl before himself. sweet db? no questions asked, sweet tlaga. wla na akong msasabi pang iba kay guy. he was so understanding. unlike many others who dont even remember to say a simple goodnight before going to sleep. he values the gurl so much. & im sure no one else has ever been that way with her. ibang klase eh.

im not suggesting na iwan ni gurl ang beloved boyfriend nia over him. yes she and her beloved boyfreind are currently exeriencing problems. but they'll work it out. [sanaa!] wala. basta. the gurl is most probably torn ngun. sab nga daw dun sa isang question sa text: cno ang mas pipiliin mong mahalin? ung taong mahal na mahal mo pro wlang pekelam sau, o ung taong mahal na mahal ka pro ndi mu pdeng mahalin?

ang sagot ko dian, wag ka nlng mgmahal! joke kj. hahaü ndi serioso, ang sagot ko lng dian ay: FOLLOW YOUR HEART! sus. isa lng ang rule ng pagmamahal. magmahal ka ng totoo. pangit pag napipilitan lng. prang cge go! wag sana gnun. dpat ung kng cno tlga gsto mu mkasama, cia lng tlaga! kng cno ng ndi mo kayang iwan, ndi mu mttake kapag iwan ka, ciang cia na tlga un. basta ako, i know im following my heart. where it leads me, i dont know! and i really dont care. being an honest lover would someday get me to where i want to be. & i know im happy. khit umiiyak ako, i know im happy.

napakahabang entry na. to cut it short na, one last word nlng. SALAMAT. nothing more && ntothing less. SALAMAT.